So, I thought that during a healing I have crossed boundaries and came under fire from evil people. I needed time, time to get back my health, all 3 of them (mental-emotional-physical) I wanted aligned. I went into this self-imposed social media sabbatical while still working for my clients, people who are being taken care by Divine through me. They were my priority apart from the first one, ME.
And then within a month, while I was guided to keep doing my daily rituals of healing, forgiveness routine, meditation I went through my 2nd awakening. If you find me too-intense then blame it on my awakening ?
It was intense, powerful, and oh so real where energies weren’t in the air!!!! And what did I feel??? I felt scared, out of my depth but a deep sense of love and knowing that everything is all right. This feeling can’t be expressed here in words and only you can feel it if you’ve gone through it.
During my first spiritual awakening one of my colleague from healing told me that this kind of awakening was rare to find and only a limited number of people get there.
And you know what, it didn’t make my life easier, in fact it got tougher from there. I couldn’t connect with people any more whom I already felt an aversion to, my family, and most of my friends didn’t understand me since then and will ask me questions about my every move, my being uncomfortable with certain people and situation was ridiculed and I would feel intense heat whenever I will encounter a violent person which was difficult since I use to take the metro every day and New York people are far polite than the Indians as in they will not deliberately invade your personal space even while traveling, still it wasn’t comfortable and no one in this 3D reality was there to help me.
But the perks were HUGE, I was shown THE WAY, my DHARMA, I started seeing myself again and even my reactions to others judgment got lesser and lesser. Then in December, 2018 I came back to India. When I was travelling back my Soul told me, this isn’t the end of your Dark Night of the Soul, in fact 2019 is your Womb Journey and take it as it is.
This Soul-Prediction became so true in the sense that when I came back, I couldn’t connect to my people, because it’s obvious they aren’t my soul-family, I could see through people and even doing that I tried to help them, because I felt we still have blood-ties and it was a different kind of kind of awakening ??? when I got kicked in my butt for being good to them.
I could laugh about it now, but it was painful to see people whom you have held dear to your heart and have helped them in times when no one could have, store so much jealousy and hatred towards you. So, it was hell lot confusing, didn’t even know what to do and how to turn things around.
Then this 2nd Awakening happened in January 2020 and am so proud (not to sound like my ego talking), but yes I am proud, because I never let anyone’s judgment, jealousy or hatred get to me and make me a vindictive individual I always remember the Golden Rule, the Karmic Law however you take it.
And now I see clearly, the difficult phases, the people, the emotions everything was worth it to where I AM right now.
Lifetimes are over and people don’t find a way to themselves, can’t find peace even with meditating daily, don’t know their karmic dharma and waste this precious human lifetime and still its’ not enough for them.
And here I am like many of you, given a chance, a real chance at life. So now I see what a favored child of God I am and because of that favor, that love, I had to encounter the difficulties, times I had nobody to turn to, but never let my kindness get robbed by others, had to cry my hurt out all alone, but now I know I was never that, my Chiti-Shakti (the Divine Mother) and my Angels were always looking after me.
And this post is to tell you, that if you’re in a situation where you feel there’s no way out, you feel depressed that nobody gets you, you feel people are always back-stabbing you, that there’s no help, think again, the invisible helpers are always there eager to help you find the way, you just need to tune-in.
Look at the difficulties as the real portals of growth & ascension and it will help you lead your life the right way. You are not here to let this lifetime go futile, you are here to conquer every obstacle and rise and shine above everyone else, so that you can become the beacon of light you already are!!!!
Have heart and keep doing what you are doing, keep spreading kindness, keep spreading love. You’re doing great.
P.S. If you feel this post and my experiences will help others you know, do share and do your side of good karma.