Today while discussing FORGIVENESS to one client, who was rather adamant about forgiving I reminiscence my school time. How life teaches you lessons you don’t even deem important, but after some years you found how lucky you are to receive guidance from the Universe.
I was in class 8th when it happened. I wanted a book and my Parents would not let me buy it, so I secretly spoke to my best friend, my Grandpa and he brought it for me. My friends wanted to see it and I took my book to school. During the games period the book was stolen from my desk and I knew who have done it because when I last left it on my desk, she was the only one present till my friends and I came back. But when I confronted her, she vehemently and with lots of bad attitude said no. My friends checked all the bags but could not find it. Since my intuition worked quite well at that time and I knew somehow that she took it.
So I came home haggard and sad and angry, all at once and went to my Grandpa to tell the tale. I cried and cried and Grandpa said that he will buy it for me once more. But I did not tell my Grandpa that I had a secret talk with God, while I was meditating that day. I was so angry that I told HIM (GOD) that if I have ever done any good deed then the person who has stolen it should be punished and I should know about it.
After a few days, there was lots of talk about the same girl having a massive accident and she broke her tooth (front ones) and had badly bruised her lips when she fell on the railway track with her cycle in tow. I saw her after a few days and instantly felt sorry. Sorry for me being a brute and sorry that she hurt herself because my guilt consciousness thought that it happened because I prayed for to punish the person who stole!!!!!
I am not delving into why the accident happened or if she has stolen, but I learned a lesson that day. I went to my Grandad and cried and told him about my prayer and her condition. He told me that day, “Now you won’t be able to take back your action, because you have already released the arrow. But you can learn that when you react to any bad situation, any bad person you are stooping down to his/her standard and since you have a heart, you will have conscience and it will not help you live a peaceful and happy life. So, always let go.”
I didn’t know at that time what gravity the statement or the practice of letting go hold, but because I loved my Grandad and only listened to him, from that day I abided with it. Many years later, now I know, forgiveness is not actually about others, not about submitting to a person or a situation, not even being a doormat, but it is actually us saving ourselves from misery, anger and lowliness.
Now I practice non-attachment with forgiveness, as many who have spoken ill, tried to inflict damages, don’t recognize by my behavior that I know how negative they have been towards me. Because I don’t have any inclination to sit on others ruins, or have extra baggage on me, in mind, emotions and spirit.
I PRACTICE LIVING, IN TRUE SENSE 🙂